funny how i hardly ever log into this account anymore. this blog used to be like my heart and soul for the world to see. i checked it faithfully everyday and blogged just as much. then came myspace, then came facebook, and somehow little old xanga faded away a bit.

i've been journaling in my actual journal more than anything lately. somehow that's better therapy than this thing. i've also been spending alot less time on the internet in general. i lost my laptop and the 3 years of pictures, songs, videos and journal entries i had saved went with it. i just began the expensive journey of finding someone who can hopefully retrieve all that precious information for me. then a couple weeks ago i left my ipod at a hotel and the staff "couldn't find it" when i called to inquire. i also deactivated my facebook account which is HUGE! since that thing was my life. i just woke up one day and was really tired of it and the shallow over-socialization it brought to my life.

my life seems more simple without all the internet time and i really enjoy it. i read alot since i spend most of my days sitting on planes, and then when i'm at home i actually hang out with people, or take time for myself instead of logging into a site to see what everybody else's business is. life is pretty calm, pretty great right now. i feel like a kid in a candy store all the time, as i continue to experience so many new and exciting things with everyday. as this year comes to a close i am so grateful i was able to take this giant step away from everything i once knew, and venture into the great unknown. its a opportunity i feel that most people either never have, or chose to pass up. and i hope it's not the last time i get to do something like this.

in a few days i will take two flights to go back to home sweet iowa. i cannot wait to spend the holidays with my family since i haven't been back in 4 months, and will get to see siblings that i haven't seen in over a year. it will be so bittersweet and lovely. i can already taste the good food, and smell my mom's house and dad's hugs, and see all the pretty decorations. there truly is no place like home for the holidays. and yet when it's time to come back to this home, i'll be ready, and happily content that i have my own place to come back to.

this may be a farewell post of sorts. my use for xanga has come and gone i think, and while it served me well in my time of need, i think i'm over it.

so merry christmas, happy new year, and richest blessings upon any of you that read this.

so long!